Can you all believe we’re in the month of December?
Last month I had a list of things I needed to get done and I have barely done any of it and I will most likely not get to any of it. I have bought all of the gifts I needed to and this year is gonna be good but I feel like I may have gone a little overboard with my daughter’s gifts. I won’t even go into it right now, but maybe I’ll save it for another post.
There are so many things I want to keep up with but I find myself really tired (could also be that I’m low on iron and low on vitamin D which causes fatigue, or that Tommy has not been sleeping through the night since he came home) to do anything.
I managed to get two advent calendars, one that Ellie wanted (although she didn’t understand that it was an advent calendar- it is testing her patience) and another one for Scripture reading in the morning.
We do Santa every year and it would be Tommy’s second picture with Santa (outside of the NICU) and I feel the pressure to go and do it b/c if I don’t I won’t have a picture next year to display. I finally just asked Ellie if she wanted to go, and she said no, she didn’t want to go see Santa and I think I may just leave it at that. I’m still debating if I should take Tommy alone, but I’m also thinking why am I torturing myself to take these kids to see Santa esp if one doesn’t even want to go.
There are so many activities I want to do and I just keep thinking, why am I doing all of this? What is the purpose behind this?
And it dawned on me. I have a major FOMO. And I see my friends doing all the things with their kids and it makes me feel like a lousy parent for taking my kids anywhere. But this is also the season I am in in my life.
Tommy is not sleeping through the night, I am dealing with some health issues, Ellie is being defiant and wanting all our attention because she is jealous of Tommy and the list goes on. I honestly can’t keep up and I feel like God is telling me, “Hey, Sarah. It’s okay to slow down this season. Instead of worrying about what you’re missing out on, why don’t you focus on what’s in front of you and be present for that?”
Some of you may be in the same season where you just don’t want to do anything and friend, I just want to say that’s okay! I’m right there with you. It’s okay to slow down during the holiday season. I encourage you to rest and be at peace this season. Stay at home, eat, and be merry!
We can try again next year.